Unfortunately my 2016 didn't work out to how I believed it would to be honest. I had plans which didn't go to plan, I had happiness which didn't remain happy and I had people I love walk out of my life.
I will not sit here, lie and say I was alright. I did try and act like everything was fine but really I wanted to just run and hide from everything. And that's the first thing I did when the first downfall happened this year. I jumped on a plane and got away. I received some bad news which literally broke my heart. After that I felt trapped staying at home and being surrounded by people constantly asking "are you okay?". Therefore being in another country helped me think about other things, while being away from negative energy. That was the first moment when I realised, don't ever give up. So as soon as I got back home, I kept going and getting on with my life.
In the back of my mind I kept the fact that I hope my plans work out how I dreamt, I couldn't bare losing another thing from my life. I got back into my job as I thought they were going to be the distraction and support in life that I needed, unfortunately I was wrong and I got stabbed in the back. I was made to walk away. And I did. I walked away and yes I was hurt but I had to keep my head up high. That situation supports me to point back to a previous blog I made, about management at work.
Summer 2016 was horrible. Having my motivation dragged out of me, being out of work and trying to keep my plan in act, as the plan was all I had left, was a whole heap of stress. I gave myself a number of chances to make at least one dream come true, but for what I am hoping is the last time of the year, my plan did not work out. I was distraught. BUT I didn't allow this to stop me.
This is where my "Big News Blog" comes from. It hasn't been published yet and unfortunately it won't be either. And the reason for this is because the "Big News Blog" was my plan which didn't work out. That being; the plan to move to Madrid for 4 months. It was a plan from the start of the year, as part of my university course.
However everything happens for a reason and I believe in this totally. So as bad as things went this year, I still had hope that there was something good on my way. And I was correct, because I have recently been offered a fantastic position with inspirational people. And I couldn't thank myself enough, for giving myself that extra push.
Now I wake up everyday and tell myself don't give up, today will be a GREAT day. And that is exactly what I want every single one of you to do, who has any doubt in life at all. Stay positive and dedicated to your life, no matter what happens.
I know I did not receive the worse problems in life, but I do hope my above stories and advice helps or supports anyone that feels alone.
Talk to you soon...
Shanise.xo
